It's been a hot minute since I've had any time to write. Rest assured.. I've been baking, but the thought of sitting down and actually writing down recipes has been a little daunting. So I've been playing a cute little game with myself where I just avoid the things I'm a little annoyed with and/or mildly afraid of.
Speaking of dating. I signed up for a few online dating sites in the last month or so. After a post on my Instagram about how uncomfortable dating apps make me was flooded with comments from well meaning people about their success stories, I felt like I needed to give it a shot. I spent hours writing up a detailed profile, trying hard to highlight my best qualities while also portraying my sardonic sense of humor and proclivity towards alone time. After a day or so my inbox was bursting with messages from potential partners.. and a surprising amount started with,
"Hey not to be offensive or anything but you're one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen."
Which is such a confusing sentence to me for a few reasons:
1. that's not offensive???
2. wait is it???
Sifting through dozens of blatantly copied and pasted messages is what I assume purgatory is like. But it's not like the only problem with online dating is the people taking advantage of the platform.. the problem is also me. Because the few meaningful interactions I had with people were so overwhelming to me. I was reminded of how much I hate texting/messaging in general, and the feeling of obligation that comes with it. I'm so fond of my own independence that adding another person into the equation is just too much for me right now. So basically online dating reminded me that I'm still dead inside, which is nice.Read More