It's Sunday night, around 10pm. I can feel cool air blowing past my curtains and wrapping around my face as I curl up into my duvet. Outside it's quiet, save for the rare car driving down my silent street, or creaks and sighs as the walls of my extremely old apartment building settle into themselves. I'm there, for hours it seems, as I close my eyes tightly and will myself to fall asleep.
The silence is deafening. And inside my head there's too much information swirling around. I reach out to grab thoughts as that go by, but they slip through my fingers. Disappearing into the ether.
I've read that if you can't fall asleep within 15 minutes of shutting the lights out and closing your eyes, that you need to get up and move around. I do this, turning the lights back on and fiddling around with my chest of drawers or making myself a cup of tea. One time I made a pizza dough from scratch, another time I stayed up until dawn reading a book, and recently I stayed awake listening to my noise machine as it went through three cycles of its 60 minute sleep timer. I wait for sleep to come, I know I do, but sometimes it just doesn't happen.
My sleeplessness has been an embarrassing problem for me lately. Here's the things I've tried before bed to combat it:
- sleepytime / bedtime tea (basically every brand & flavor)
- reading books
- plugging my phone in across the room and not allowing myself to look at it until 30 minutes after I wake up in the morning
- noise machines
- zzyquil or other OTC sleep aids
- essential oils
- yoga in the mornings
Everything has worked for me in some capacity, just not consistently. Sometimes I think I've finally cracked it, that I've found the cure-all to insomnia. But then, with a jolt it comes back. Right now the best thing that is working for me is to stop looking at my phone 30 minutes before I fall asleep, and taking a good multivitamin in the mornings so that my energy is easily spread out throughout the day. I've been using this one from Ritual and it's been great so far.Read More